Rowan Mangan and Martha Beck, with Rowan's arm around Martha

BewilderedTM

with martha beck
and rowan mangan

What if we stopped listening to the controlling voice of the culture around us, and instead learned to reconnect with our own true nature? 

Sometimes we aren’t even sure why we feel so bewildered… and discontented… and even downright miserable. Often it’s because we have let the forces of society replace our own instinctive knowledge of what is right for us. 

Now, it’s time for us to find that voice again—before it’s too late.

For Martha and Rowan, Job One is to live according to our deepest truths, making the commitment to feeling good even when it means looking weird. We believe that this is how we will reinvent our world—from the inside out— to create a society that’s kinder, more equitable, and more ecologically sustainable than the one we see around us right now. 

This is the vision that we laugh and stumble and chat and feel our way towards here on this podcast.  Did we mention LAUGH? We want no part of personal and global transformation if it isn’t fun!

So if you struggle to find a place where people who are as idealistic and brokenhearted, as silly and deeply sincere, as bewildered as you are—you might have just arrived. 

Welcome!

Latest Podcast Episodes

Episode #73

On Burnout and Reset

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Ever suffer from burnout? Martha and Ro have, and they’re talking all about it on this episode of BEWILDERED!

Burnout is something our culture doesn’t allow because it expects us to be productive non-stop. However, our wild natures require “wintering” [...]

Image for Episode #72 Undercover Counterculture Bandit for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Get excited because Martha and Ro have a very special guest on this episode of BEWILDERED: their beloved partner Karen Gerdes!

While Karen may seem mild mannered and conventional at first glance, that’s just her cover. Karen stopped listening to [...]

Episode #71

Big Feelings

Image for Episode #71 Big Feelings for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Have you been struggling with big feelings?

Frustration. Overwhelm. Anger. Grief. These are all vitally important human emotions, yet the culture demands we suppress them at all costs. 

In this episode of Bewildered, Martha and Ro talk about why that is, [...]

Image for Episode #70 Change Cycle: Beauty That Moves for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

The culture tells us that whenever we achieve a goal, we’re supposed to stay there: 

“Now you’re a butterfly. The End.” 

Yet Nature, which we’re all part of, is always changing. 

In this final episode of their series on change, Martha and [...]

Image for Episode #69 Change Cycle: Wild Horses for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Have you ever felt driven to do specific excruciating tasks, and you couldn’t explain why? 

This “wild horses feeling” is present whenever you’re working toward your heart’s desire, and it’s a key part of what Martha calls Square Three in [...]

Image for Episode #68 Change Cycle: A Space for Dreaming for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Change isn’t always easy, but did you know that parts of the process can be a lot of fun?

In this second re-release episode from their four-part series about The Change Cycle, Martha and Ro are exploring Square Two—the “dreaming [...]

Image for Episode #67 Change Cycle: Bug Soup for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Do you know what happens to a caterpillar inside its cocoon? 

It disintegrates into a gooey mass before its cells reform into a butterfly. This “bug soup” phase isn’t pretty, but it’s an essential part of change—what Martha refers to [...]

Image for Episode #66 Bittersweet Misunderstandings for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

The culture says it’s a given that the people who love you will understand you. But very often, the people who love you don’t understand you at all—yet they can have the strongest ideas about who you should be.

Martha [...]

Episode #65

Beauty That Moves

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Martha and Ro are coming “full square” on this episode of BEWILDERED® to talk about Square Four in Martha’s Change Cycle.

The culture tells us that whenever we achieve a goal, we’re supposed to stay there: “Now you’re a butterfly. [...]

Image for Episode #64 Zen and the Art of Travel With Toddlers for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

The hinges have come off, folks—Martha and Rowan have jet lag (and they’re not afraid to use it!) in this episode of Bewildered: Zen and the Art of Traveling with Toddlers. 

On two recent international trips, Martha and Ro’s toddler [...]

Image for Episode #63 Best of Bewildered: Vulnerability Hangovers for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Have you ever bravely shared your authentic self, only to agonize over it later thinking you shared too much?

This is something Brené Brown calls a “vulnerability hangover”—and we’ve all been there.

In this episode from THE BEST OF BEWILDERED, Martha [...]

Image for Episode #62 Best of Bewildered: Making the Right Choice for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

It’s THE BEST OF BEWILDERED, and this week we’re revisiting another favorite episode from the vault: Making the Right Choice.

The culture believes there’s always a single right choice and that choosing wrong means you’ve wasted your entire life. So [...]

Image for Episode #61 Best of Bewildered: Elizabeth Gilbert gets Bewildered! for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

In case you missed out the first time around, Martha and Ro are sharing some of their all-time favorite episodes in a series called The Best of Bewildered.

First up, Elizabeth Gilbert Gets Bewildered! In this encore episode, Liz joined [...]

Episode #60

Wild Horses

Image for Episode #60 Wild Horses for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Have you ever felt driven to do specific excruciating tasks, and you couldn’t explain why? 

While the culture mindlessly tells us we should always work hard, there’s also a place in our true nature for dogged, determined work. In this [...]

Episode #59

Bug Soup

Image for Episode #59 Bug Soup for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Do you know what happens to a caterpillar inside its cocoon? 

It disintegrates into a gooey mass before its cells reform into a butterfly. Martha calls this state “bug soup.” It’s not pretty, but it’s an essential part of change—including [...]

Image for Episode #58 Dream Dashers and Way Stations for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

You know those big, magical dreams you can’t seem to let go of, the ones that could change the whole course of your life? 

Martha and Ro call these wild yearnings “way station dreams,” and you better believe the culture [...]

Image for Episode #57 The Deep, Slow River of Creativity for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

On this episode of BEWILDERED® Martha and Ro answer a question from listener Laurel, who’s struggling to focus on a big creative project in a world full of distractions.

The culture tells us that we can be successful at our [...]

Episode #56

When to Leave

Image for Episode #56 When to Leave for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

“Should I stay, or should I go?”

In this BeWild Files episode of BEWILDERED®, Martha and Ro dive into this question—and they say that the first step is to question our thoughts.

Why?

Because problems often come from our thoughts about our [...]

Episode #55

The Pull

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Have you ever had the sense of being pulled towards something…but you had no idea why?

Martha and Ro call this mysterious feeling “the pull,” and they’re talking all about it in Episode 55 of BEWILDERED®. They share examples of [...]

Image for Episode #54 The Anxiety Files, Vol. 2: A Tiny Crunch of Fear for the Bewildered Podcast with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan

Anxiety in the culture—what exactly is going on there? 

That’s what Martha and Ro are trying to figure out in this special Anxiety Files episode of Bewildered.

As a society we create structures to control things and keep us safe so [...]

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