Revealing Ourselves: The Art of Self-Disclosure

Cindy was my own little JFK: A riddle wrapped in a question locked inside an enigma. She’d been my client for nearly three months, but I still had no idea what she thought or felt. Our conversations always went something like this:

Me: “So, Cindy, what’s going on in your life?”

Cindy: “Oh, you know. Like, my parents…[long pause]”

Me: “Yes?”

Cindy: “You know how they are.”

Me: “Um, not really. How are they?”

Cindy: “It’s like, well, anyway…I don’t know, they…like…[sigh]”

Me: “Like what?”

Cindy: “You know.”

As flattered as I was that Cindy seemed to consider me omniscient (she said “you know” approximately four thousand times per session), I eventually had to advise that she stop wasting money on a life coach who had no clue what to tell her. “But,” Cindy exclaimed with obvious dismay, “you’re the only person who really seems to understand me!” 

Until that moment, I’d assumed that Cindy didn’t trust me enough to talk about her inner life. Then I realized that she just didn’t know how. To some degree, most of us share her dilemma. We want desperately to be understood, and we think this will happen when we meet the Perfectly Understanding Person. The truth is that we lack the capacity to make ourselves understood, the ability to disclose our real selves in a way that connects us with others. Even if you’re as stuck as Cindy, you can—and if you want to live joyfully, you must—learn to do it. 

The Dance of the Seven Veils 

The ability to make yourself understood is a prosaic, practical skill, like swimming or telling time but more fundamental to your emotional health. In his poem “A Prayer for My Daughter,” William Butler Yeats called it “the heart-revealing intimacy / that chooses right,” phrasing that emphasizes the importance of opening our feelings to others—but carefully. Most of us reveal ourselves about as gracefully as drunken ducklings until we’ve had a little experience. Like Cindy, we may spend years in inarticulate silence, then blurt out things that make us feel, well, like we’re exposing ourselves. 

The ability to disclose our true selves effectively is a bit like the famous dance of the seven veils, in which the dancer removes one veil at a time, with plenty of dancing in between, creating far more allure than if she just showed up buck naked. Relationships, even completely asexual ones, work the same way (one of my clients used the term falling in like to describe the happy dance of gradual disclosure involved in making friends). Our true selves are hidden behind innumerable veils. Each time we disclose a truth about ourselves—anything from our favorite color to our deepest feelings—we remove a layer. Pay attention the next time you do this. Notice the other person’s reaction. Does it make you feel understood, safe, glad you’ve unveiled a bit? If so, you’ll probably feel like shedding another layer sometime soon. If not, simply stop unveiling. By responding to your instincts, you’ll develop the skill of setting boundaries very precisely. This sets you free to bond with people who really understand you, while remaining cordially detached from those who don’t.

The Art of Self-Disclosure 

Cindy didn’t have any objection to shedding her veils, but she was tangled in knots of inarticulate shyness. She had to learn the art of self-disclosure from the ground up. I use the term art advisedly. I believe even if you’re a bullheaded truckdriver with the emotional range of a stump, developing an ability to disclose will require—at least temporarily—that you become a self-disclosing artist. There are several different ways to awaken the artist in yourself, starting with: 

1. Let your body talk. You could assemble a group of mothers from Zimbabwe, Greenland, and New York, have them describe what it was like to give birth, and rest assured that they would soon be weeping for one another’s pain and laughing at one another’s jokes without any need for interpreters. Lacking a common language, they would speak in Body, the communicative code of gesture, movement, and facial expression shared by all people. If you’re not able to articulate what you feel or believe, you can use this code to let your deep self talk to your conscious, verbal mind. 

Cindy and I started using this process shortly after she rejected my suggestion that she find another coach. I had her describe to me, in as much detail as possible, some of the best and worst experiences of her life. Her words were few and halting, but the more she tried to describe these events, the more Cindy’s body unconsciously began to express profound experiences: hands moving protectively toward her throat or opening into starbursts of excitement; eyes narrowing in anger, then widening in astonishment; shoulders hunching, drooping, squaring off for combat. Every so often I’d ask Cindy to freeze, and we’d talk about what we thought her body was trying to convey.

You can use a similar method alone or (better) with a buddy or counselor or (best) with a group of friends. As you talk about a problem or prospect you’re facing, ask yourself and your observers what your body is expressing. When I do this in seminars, I’m amazed by how much information people get from one another’s physical signals, how sensitively they can interpret nuances of feeling, and how much consensus exists, even in large groups, about what any given person’s body is expressing. If your mind isn’t sure what you’re feeling, you’ll be amazed what you can learn from and say with your body.

2. Fumble for words. Despite the power of body language, we are ineluctably verbal creatures; words usually end up being our preferred means of self-disclosure. Most of us don’t realize that humans have barely begun using language to describe subjective experiences. Until a paltry few centuries ago, most people were far too busy surviving to spend time discussing thoughts and feelings. Many of the words we use to describe psychological phenomena (depression, excitement, humor) were originally used to refer to physical objects or actions (a concave surface, the initiation of motion, bodily fluid). These words were adapted almost fancifully to describe feelings or thoughts. They stuck because no better alternatives existed.

Since using words to capture and convey experience is so new, I think we should all consider ourselves verbal pioneers, pushing back the boundaries of the wild frontier, groping for the words to express things that may never have been expressed before. If you’re intimidated by the thought of saying the Wrong Thing, try deliberately playing fast and loose with words. Most of us censor and edit ourselves when the words that pop into our minds aren’t sensible. If Shakespeare had thought this way, he might have written, “That’s a hurtful thing to say,” instead of, “These words like daggers enter in mine ears.” The second sentence is less factual, but we can feel its meaning viscerally. When it comes to self-disclosure, choose guts over grammar. Say what comes up.

When Cindy began to experiment with voicing her first thoughts, rather than the “right” answer, I immediately began to understand her better. “I feel like my head is full of sand,” she said one day, “with a bird in it.” Then she blushed and apologized, “That makes no sense!” But it made perfect sense to me. I could feel the clogged thickness of Cindy’s brain in my own head, sense the fluttering, winged thing that was buried alive inside it. My inner life had connected with Cindy’s, and her emotional isolation began dissolving.

Try writing down the phrase “I feel like a ———” and then toss out the first ten nouns that come to mind: pizza, orchid, sword, whatever. Now read over what you’ve written and see what rings true. Do you really feel like an orchid? In what way? Be as irrational as you can be. The less you keep the rules, the more your mind will begin to use words as vehicles to convey the sense of your experience, rather than as rigid structures that limit your thoughts and feelings.

3. Use artists’ creations to describe how you feel. Great art, in my opinion, is simply a reflection of the artist’s ability to disclose his or her inner experience very directly and accurately. I know exactly how Edvard Munch was feeling when he painted The Scream, and so do you. A sequence of musical tones assembled by Bach, or a few words placed in a sparse line by e.e. cummings, can convey pure emotion or articulate truths I never knew about myself—I have no idea how this is possible, but it is. A wonderful way to disclose your own heart, then, is to get a little help from artists who communicate feelings similar to your own. I tend to play music for my family and friends (“Here! This is what I’m feeling!”) as a way of disclosing aspects of myself I can’t express. I also plague people with drawings, paintings, books, and movies that have touched me deeply. It always strikes me as miraculous that I—or you or even the noncommunicative Cindy—can borrow the genius of artists who lived in other times and places to build bridges across the voids that separate our hearts from each other. 


As a matter of fact, Cindy the Silent gradually blossomed into one of the most expressive people I’ve ever coached. After learning to interpret her own feelings, speak freely, and ride piggyback on the self-disclosing genius of others, she decided to quit her dead-end job and enroll in film school. She recently sent me a still shot she’d taken of me sitting in my office with my dog, discussing the art of self-disclosure. Beneath the image Cindy had written, “This is a little underexposed, like me. But I’m working on it.” She didn’t need to say more. She knew I’d understand.

16 replies
  1. Brandi
    Brandi says:

    A great reminder to open up, take a risk and cultivate our own inner garden by showing our true selves. I love this Martha! It can be scary to share who we really are to the world. It’s must easier to say we’re doing fine or to pretend we’re okay. But whenever I’ve taken the risk to reveal who I really am, I’ve learned so much about others and myself.

  2. Lynn Davison
    Lynn Davison says:

    Martha, you are my hero. How did you know I needed this article today? Thank you for focusing your ray of sunshine on my soul, giving me the understanding and skills to make my relationships with family and friends so much better. Your books, articles and blog posts have made a difference in my life. Thank you again.

  3. beverly kocenko
    beverly kocenko says:

    Thank you for sharing.My heart and mind and spirit are opening up again asif in waves. My mouth ,oh my.

  4. Teresa
    Teresa says:

    Wow! I’m always searching for those blind spots in my personality that I am not aware of. Your article hit a nerve. You’re a big and innovative thinker Martha. You have a new fan.

  5. ceciledelafuente
    ceciledelafuente says:

    I read the above article on “Self Disclosure,” and I liked the ideas/concepts. I have read Martha Beck’s article for years in O Magazine. I finally read the book “Steering by Starlight” and plan to read more. I am always looking for great movies and would be very interested in reading Martha’s recommendation of movies and a short blurb on what sparked her interest and attention to that particular movie. What motivated me to request this information was something Martha wrote in her article about referring folks to see her movie picks.

  6. Patti from Scottsdale
    Patti from Scottsdale says:

    From Steering By Starlight to Finding Your Way,Martha I find you magical. I am a writer and thanks to you I am in counseling to unblock my creativity. I look forward to your next book and one day, the opportunity to attend one of your seminars.

  7. Teresa S
    Teresa S says:

    Having felt alone in my life’s travels so much, reading anything by Martha Beck has become like a compass. With her smarts, wit & humor–not to mention her own personal experiences she shares so freely–I feel compelled to follow my own North Star & become the Wayfinder maybe I was meant to be?

  8. john
    john says:

    Thanks Martha , Im a bit locked into myself but I feel you are talking directly to me. thats my feeling. Its good to get a balance of outlook. I met one of my former social care team today and it is clear my efforts to grasp new thinking is paying and being healed and born again must be the greatest thing in the world..things will happen that the mind needent make sense of..and thats allright.

  9. Grandma Gale
    Grandma Gale says:

    Dearest Martha,
    You do really good work.
    Your work makes a really positive impact on our world.

  10. Mary
    Mary says:

    Thank you Martha for these insights and reflections…I used to be like this person about 30 years ago when I had to go to counselling…I too could not tell my counsellor what I was feeling – I did not know what a feeling was…
    Today, I still find myself editing my words depending on who I am talking to..
    However, this information is a good reminder and good affirmation of who I was!

  11. Bridget
    Bridget says:

    On whizzing, whistling wings I whoosh about looking grey but feeling all the colours of the rainbow…I know that secretly I am beautiful.
    Thanks Martha…I’m a pigeon but not just any old pigeon…you got to get to know me better 🙂

  12. Samela
    Samela says:

    This article makes a lot of sense. I am a pretty verbal person, but sometimes I have emotions or feelings that have more physical or visceral descriptions than words could convey. Thank you.

  13. Shelley
    Shelley says:

    I’ve always had trouble verbally expressing myself. I fumble, a lot. Your article was so insightful. It never dawned on me there was an alternative to releasing my true self. Thank you for sharing the concept of Self-Disclosure. You’ve definitely gained a new follower.

  14. Kate
    Kate says:

    Choosing people to share that body-emotion thing with strikes me as a major exercise in (to steal the name of a ’50’s game show) “Who Do You Trust?” That in itself could be a reason to do it. I do wonder what my body might show that I don’t know about.

    As a musician and writer, that last is part of me at a basic level. I certainly know what you mean about the gift of Herr Bach’s nonverbal discourses.

    But I have to disagree about that painting. Anything called “The Scream” should convey horror or pain. But despite the fact that a resources group for trigeminal neuralgia uses the image as a symbol of pain (see, all I can see when I look at that painting is a mime expressing surprise. Okay, I’m a philistine.

  15. Kristina
    Kristina says:

    Exactly what I needed to see and learn today! I am in the midst of a renewed focus on my Mind-Body-Spirit Connection, and this ‘art of disclosure’ is what I consider as the “Connection” part of my transformation. That is, I feel that I can totally ‘clean up’ my MBS, but have no idea of how to convey the experience and changes to those loved ones around me who obviously are (or will be) affected by it. So, thank you for the helpful ideas to try! Will definitely use YOU and your inspiring blog and books as some of the artistic creations that help acknowledge and advance my feelings.

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